I'mmmmmmm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaackkkk

I was going to start a new blog, but I thought, if it's not broke, why fix it with a new blog???

So here is a run down of what I have been up to since the last time I posted:

Januray 2011-August 2011: Inpatient and Day Patient treatment for anorexia
August 2011-January 2012: Back to third year of College:
January 2012-March 2012: Inpatient treatment for anorexia
March 2012-August 2012: Worked for an Event Management Company as part of my Degree.
September 2012-December 2012: In and Out and now OUT of Inpatient/DayPatient Treatment for Anorexia

In between all of that? I have been recovering, working, college working, playing, meeting new people, growing as a person and as a woman.

At the moment, I am working full time in The Happy Pear and LOVING it (but what's new). My sister still lives in the UK, my younger sister is now 18!!! and doing her finals in school. I still live in a small little town. I am still sarcastic as ever. I still LOVE music. The biggest change in me since I stopped blogging in 2011 is that I AM CONFIDENT AND COMFORTABLE IN MYSELF AS A PERSON!! I have finally come to appreciate myself as a human being and that feels BLOODY AMAZING!!. My life isnt exactly how I want it to be, but I am working on it. Thats why I am blogging again. This blog will be about: food, recovery, CBT, Body Image, Growing up and LOVING YOURSELF.

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Hello again

Hi :) you may remember me from such posts as......... Ok I'm not going to go into all the previous posts I have written, I seriously don't even think I can remember back that far! But id love to know how man of you guys read that in the infamous simpsons 'Tory mac lure' voice?!:) So I've decided t start blogging again.probabaly not as often as before,but I d nt to start doing it again. Fr those of you who followed my blog a few years ago (woah it's been like, 1.5 years since I last posted!!) craaaazy, for those of you who know me, you'll know that I've struggled with an eating disorder for a good long while now and for those of you who are new to delicious and nutreitious living, well, now you know! Fortunately I can look back in my past posts from 2009 and 2010 and honestly say I have come on soooo far since then!!! When I left this blog at the beggining of last year, I had left college (due to my illness). Now? I'm back in college, undergoing an internship, working at a part time job at the weekend,socialising, and most importantly? Loving myself and loving my life!. I'm not cured, I'm not 'fixed' but my oh my am I on my way!! I look forward to writing again about my daily happenings! I find my life exciting and I hoe you do too!!!! Check out my recovery Facebook page 'create life bite by bite' and my other blog also named 'create life bite by bite'. Xxxxx fi

Goodbye, Happy New Year, Hello Again!!

So here it is. Just like I said. My last post on "Delicious and Nutritous Living"-tear! I actually am a little upset about it. This blog has been my baby for the last year. I started it after being inspired by the "blog" world in general. I wanted to document my recovery. My gosh I have had my ups and downs. This year has certainly not been one that I have enjoyed all the time. But I suppose I learned a lot. Have I put that into practice yet? No. But, you know what, I will, in time.

In 2010:

I took place in a sponsored silence-Yes, me , I know.

I ranted and raved about recovery

I had boring days in which I shared a lot of random info about myself

I renewed my vows

I had fall outs and frustrations

I went through a poetry phase

I reached a healthy BMI

I was excited to go to California and I was freeking out about exams

I started my summer off well + went to see Rihanna

I went to America and struggled

I had a blast of a partaay!!! and turned 22

Ok, enough of the links! Basically, after tunrning 22. I stayed in Cali for a few more weeks, came home, did a summer camp, struggled some more, went back to college, got a new job, moved out of home, struggled some more, came home, took a break from blogging, came back to blogging, deffered my year in college-which brings me to NOW!

Im still here, still fighting, but now Im moving on. Ive met soem wondeful people on this blog.

Marina, Clemmy, Missy, Izzy, Arman, Kevin, Tori, Danielle, Sarah, Emmy, Maya, Eliza and soooooooooooo many more. I hope all of you will follow me at my new address http://www.happyhealthyhippy.wordpress.com/.

Love always

and Happy New Year

Fi

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Oh dear, someones been neglecting their blog lately!!!yes I've been cheating in my blog, sorry 'delicious nutritious living' I still heart you but I've found me a new project! Recovery is, not grea but I'll be ok, I always am right? My new page will be announced soon, hold tight, stay strong.
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I want it all and I want it now 27.12.10

I just want all this weight on, I want to be healthy, I want to have a healthy, curvy, functioning body. I want it all now, I feel like Veruca Salt from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

I want to have all the motivation consistently, I want to be able to eat, exercise, gain weight, not have to sit around all day, be active in my life.

I want it all NOW

I am so done with 2010, its stale, bring on 2011!!

25.12.10

Merry Xmas one and all, I hope today brought you joy, happiness, a well fed tummy, family and laughter.

My day didnt start off great, but a few laughs, a few pressies, some turkey and more than a few glasses of wine :) and im all happy sitting on my floor by the fire with my family watching Dr.Who. Will probabaly go for a walk in the snow later, followed by a games night with the neighbours, some baileys, some ice cream (maybe mixed together) and then a movie.

Merry Xmas one and all.

Fi

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23.12.10

Merry Xmas Eve of the Eve of Christmas.

Wow, you guys are all so clever! (or are you?)

Hmmm.

Well yes, yes you are. Im a starting a new blog. I am currently working on it. It will be on wordpress. I feel like Delicious and Nutritious Living has run its course, but I am not through with blogging and I am definitely in a different place now than I was one year ago. Hence the decision to create a new blog, with a different focus. I am excited about it and I hope you will all follow me there! I will announce the official opening on this blog (and will continue to post here until its ready because I want it "just right"). As far as I have seen, I am the only Irish blogger (besides Yvonne) thats around here. *Thats not to say I actually AM, if ur an Irish blogger and youre reading * Dia duit! Conas ata tu?? Ba mhaith leat na sneacht? Ni maith liom e, Nollaigh Shona Duit *

So, as I am still posting here, here goes. (is it odd that I always think its funny when the same word has two or sometimes three! different meanings and find it amusing to use said word in the same sentence?).

Well, lately Im doing pretty well. Im eating much more than I used to. The guilt, like I said before, comes and goes, but on the most part, Im ok. I literally just FORCE myself everyday to listen to my heart and not my head. Ive been watching a lot of YouTube clips of Eat Pray Love and lets just say "Im in a relationship with this movie". The book itself was a bit of a phenomenon. Have you read it? What did you think?.
Sorry, back to what I was saying, yea, Im eating well, but Im feeling really DRAAAAAAAAAB.

Im not confident in myself, bubbly or energetic. Im not that, well, happy!. I am not pleased with how I look, how I dress, the way my hair is, the way I am living. I feel a bit of a loner. Unfortunately ya'll know what happens when these feelings creep in. But Im avoiding it as well as I can!. I just hope this phase passes soon. Its not very Christmassy is it??

Speaking of Christmas, the weather here is something crazy, no joke, its madness! and not a good madness, the kind of madness that closes airports, stops people from driving anywhere and prevents peoples family aka-MINE! getting to my house for xmas day! yes, my grandparents might not be able to visit which sucks. But we are expecting soon, hopefully, fingers crossed a thaw in time for Christmas. Lets all pray for a christmas miracle!!

On this note Ill say goodbye. Im currently watching a documentary about animals, did u know the crocodile can go TWO YEARS without one meal?? No wonder theyre always cranky. :)

Have you seen/read Eat Pray Love?
Do you ever go through those "Im a mess and a failure" phases?
Do you like documentaries?

Merry Christmas loves
Fi
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Oh and to brighten up anyones day, check this out.
In Dublin Airport yesterday

Edited to add: I had a Eurika! moment in the shower this morning as to why I am feeling so fed up, out of sorts and unconfident! Over the past two weeks I have been doing things that anorexia really doesnt like and things that I am not used to doing. The feelings I am experiencing are the back lash from anorexia-telling me Im crap for eating more, that Im unattractive and worhtless and that eating doesnt bring good feelings. Im also losing my idea of "control" aka, living the rigid lifestyle of anorexia. So what do I do about this?
I keep eating
I dont turn to silly mechanisms of control
I tell anorexia to "F78k off" when it tells me I am not confident/worthy etc..
I remind myself that I Fiona am a wonderful person